King of my Heart

Then it shifts – to that fundamental truth about our God – that he is good.  Here is where I would start to crumble.  I don’t know about you, but I’ve sometimes questioned this.  There’s been times in my life I have just wondered if he truely is good.  Circumstances around me – suffering – pain – doesn’t always add up to a good God.  It got me wondering if my idea of goodness is perhaps not quite the same as God’s.

Again here we shift back to these picturesque descriptions of our relationship with God, taking us to the freedom and breeze of a sail boat and the warmth of fire.

Now the song shifts – the melody changes and we declare God is never going to let us down.  Can you always sing these lines?  As with declaring God is good, I was questioning this, and this is the line that would bring me undone.  The truth be told feeling like God had let me down was the prime reason that I was also questioning the goodness of God.  What had to shift for me was on how I viewed God.  Was he the God that fixed my problems, solved this or that?  Was he the God that I asked for this or that and he gave it right away?  Was he the God that made only good things happen around me or the “and they lived happily ever after” God?  When I realised he was no fairy god mother or Santa Claus things started the shift.  When I realised God didn’t look like me or think like me things started to change.  When I realised there is a mystery to God and I learnt to be ok with that I started to change.  The healing began… the ache, the anger – it started to dissipate.

God is love.  God is good.  God is holy.  God is just.  I can’t fully grasp these statements.  God is not human and he is beyond my complete comprehension but I choose to trust him and I choose to trust in his goodness despite of the circumstances.  Now singing these lines of his goodness and declaring him to never let me down comes from a depth of faith in who my God is.  These lines now stir my spirit to declare it with a deep faith of the assurance of God’s ultimate salvation and restoration of all things.  No matter what… I know God will bring a goodness and a restoration that I could never comprehend or imagine and God doesn’t always think the same as me (what a surprise!) – it’s going to be different to how I would do it.  The song I used to loath as it was so super hard and highlighted my pain I now love as it highlights his restorative process in me and in everything around me.

HERE is another YouTube version of it.

Bless you with the abundance of his love!

Christine xx